Saturday, December 18, 2004
I realised i can't reflect properly in a facilitation settin...can think betta when i am alone like when i am waitin fer my bus or rottin on the bus. Somehow durin facilitation, my brain works slower and cant process thoughts properly and that i jus cant bring across the emotions i am feelin...weird. Now that my attachment is over, i suddenly feel this sense of loss, a sudden break of routine. Guess, i would be tinki of pple like Roslee, Sai Keong, Anita, Ah Hua and many more whose face i can recognise, how they would wave to us when we walk past every mornin, shake our hands when we walk past and "tok" to us. There were times when i felt disgusted, especially in the first and 2nd dae bcos i was not used to the serious droolin/salivatin sight and kinda makes me lose my appetite. It happened even when i went down to CCK to help out on the 2nd mon and i was helpin in the feedin, after that i had totally no appetite fer lunch and even dinner. But now, i am more used to them and its the end of the attachment, gonna feel weird on mon. No more meetin at bedok interchange and runnin after bus 21 in the mornin...haha
Well, besides the IDs at the home, i am gonna miss the gers and guy from my group, esp pple like yixuan ( my twin cos we both like iced lemon tea and popiah and the 2 of us are the jokers la), Clara ( the guai guai SCGS bballer whu dun look like one and the only ger i noe whu has sweaty palms like me!!) and Aneesa ( the crappy TKGS ger whu never fail to bully me everydae wif her words, ouch, i am so hurt). Gonna miss u gers lots and lots and hope u gers will miss me too...haha, i will always rem those times we would sing and laugh on the way to bedok interchange as well as our trip to bugis...haf to admit that the neoprint we took is damn NICE!!! haha
Now that attachment is over, we may not see each other in the near future but i reallie hope that we can go down to help out every week, make it part of our life and a continuation to our attachment. Continue to give and contribute and most impt of all, warm the hearts of the IDs and let them now that they are loved, i tink i am fallin in love wif them, the genuine, sincere look from their eyes and the smiles that comes right from their heart. Not every normal individual is able to achieve such simple joys in this competitive world where we hear of backstabbers and evil gossips, in the world of the IDs, even a simple reward of Jude buyin keropok for them can make them so happie. Okie, so now i am quite sure i will be goin down to Sundac Chai chee every fri or every alt week cos i wanna go and collect newpapers wif Jude's group and oso cos i got no lessons on fridae...hurray!! Anyone of ya whu wanna go down and take a look jus let me noe ok...i would be more than happy to bring ya along =)
For the time being, i shall jus miss all u pple from Sundac!!
=Love=Yvonne=
