Saturday, December 31, 2005
1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold
as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.
4. What you hate most in your partner is that the person is
ruthless, cold-blooded, and/or ironic.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one which make you feel warmth and in-love always.
6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.
7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.
8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.
Take the test here
Friday, December 30, 2005
Haha, went to East Coast Park (ECP) with JE and WJ. JE ended up being the overall instructor with 2 trainees, me (bladin) and WJ (cyclin). I went late as usual but luckily the crowd i was goin with are not the early birds so not too bad. Still managed to steal a rest at Ajisen while WJ had his lunch. Hee
It was fun bladin even thou instructor Chew din reallie gimme alot of attention. Trainee WJ needed more attention so i understand. Managed to gain a bit of enlightenment from a little boy and i tot i bladed quite well after that but after seein instructor Chew, my enlightenment jus left me and went the other way to the sea.
Then JE keep wantin to gimme the ride of my life - with me on my blades. Seriously i am a bit scared cos he walked (or ran?) so fast earlier on while i was holdin on to his water pack that i fell - on my guards. So happie to have my guards that i escaped all the falls unscathed, save for a few bruises. So yah, i din dare get on the 'ride'.
However, i did get the 'ride' of my life la. With the help of WJ and JE. I jus held on to the 2 of them - on on bike and the other on foot. It was damn fun cos it was veri excitin. It felt as if i am not in control of anything, even when i lose my balance, they had to catch hold of me. But the best thing was i managed to pass the strip of uneven grounds without effort on my own. Haha. Damn fun and we did it twice. The first time i fell backwards and the 2nd time i fell forward. The 'faling' reallie strains my arms cos i rem i cant take it anymore after the 2nd strain. Feels like my arms gonna drop off soon. Think we looked damn comical but yah it was still fun. Tink only i found it fun, it must have been veri stressful for the guys cos they have to hold on to me while i jus have to keep my body straight and my blades parallel. Jokes!
Anw thanks to JE for organisin today's outing. Lookin forward to ECP part 2 cos i wanna see WJ cycle on his own yeah. And JH, this time, u are comin with us!!!
And WJ, thanks for stabilisin me the 2nd time i almost fell. If not, think my butt sure gone one. Haha, and take care of ur wound. Dun worry abt it okies, i tink it wun get infected cos got use dettol to sterilise. Hee, if u are well by next thurs, we shall go again. Hols mood for first 2 weeks la.
Anyways, before i end offHappy Birthday Dikun!!
Monday, December 26, 2005
drives me out to sea...
Time to say sorry again. Just cant pass my own beliefs. I need a psychologist soon i guess.
Some people think it is because i cant let go, which i know is not true. Like i said before, it is the beliefs that i formed that changed me. I may appear strong but the truth is i cant take another setback anymore. That's why i choose to put myself in between feeling and not feeling so that i dun get sucked in and later regret why i did what i done.
Time is precious. Indeed it is precious but it is so unquantifiable that how much time is enuff? Nobody knows rite? What is short for me may seem too long for somebody else. Does 2 negatives make a positive? For mathematics it works this way but in real life this is hardly the case. 2 mistakes doesn't make it right yeah. I am not daring to make the 2nd mistake. Emotional labour is too demandin alr. And i jus got reminded of my last christmas. Reminds me of the song "Last Christmas", some parts are quite apt but not everything applies. I dun want to keep talkin abt the same thing over and over again. It gets veri borin when i say it in bits and pieces. Anw, that't not impt alr. What is important is how i choose wisely or choose not to choose at all.
Y is it that i have a strong feelin it will be the latter?
Dun tink too much yeah.
P.S: If you think i am talkin about you, most likely i am not. =)
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Came back from CT chalet yesterday noon.
Slept for an hour plus before wakin up in shock cos i realised that i left my charger at the chalet. How muddleheaded can i be?? Scorpios have strong inituition and i def believe it in. Everytime i have a foreboding feelin that i missed bringin, it is usually true. The stronger the feelin, the more impt that thing be to me. Gotta make my way down to downtown east to retrieve my charger. Sian, so out of the way for me.
Took some pictures at the chalet. Will post them up when i get my hands on them. Who ask me dun have digital camera, can only wait la...haha
And last night, i had such a bad headache (my parents attribute to heatiness) that i went to sleep at 10pm. Woke up at 12 plus thinking that it was still 10 plus. Realised i had a whopping 14++ hrs of sleep. Amazing...i like it when i can sleep until i shuang3!!
This lifestyle is comin to an end soon le...gotta gear myself up for a hectic sem on 3rd Jan. Awww...
Monday, December 19, 2005
This is so crazy i finished about 100 games in like 4 day?
Going blind. But shortsighted first.
3 days of break from soliatire showdown but will make it up with BRIDGE and MAHJONG!!!
Yay...finally goin 3 days of CT chalet. YIPPEE!!!
Still haven packed. Tmr mornin jus grab a few clothes will do la. Not a fussy dresser. =)
P.S. Thanks Jason for the lift tmr in adv!!
Chalet...here i come!!
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Had a mini AIS outing with JE and WJ. Went late as usual, almost an hour late...haha so tired therefore woke up at 1pm...sighs.
Walked ard to find WJ his shirts but ended up empty-handed. Went to Food Republic for high tea (me and je) and lunch (wj). The stall that sells dim sum has veri nice paper-wrapped-chicken!!! The paper tastes good yeah but i din eat the paper, was jus tastin. Reallie, it is reallie good, u guys shld try also. A pity the xiao long bao sold out, if not i will be able to comment on one of my fave foods. Yum Yum!!
Had carls junior for dinner and wj filled our drink with lemon tea and jus that. No sweetener...it was the most disgustin lemon tea i ever drank. It ended up being the waterin for a plant nearby...Hope the plant doesn't die. Refilled twice cos we a bit budget la. Had fun guessing various soft drinks added. So, if you want a drink that has a detergent aftertaste, use sprite. Haha.
Carls juniors was so packed that je suggested bringin us to his "haven" - which is the steps overlooking DXO. Lucky we found a place with tables and chairs nearby if not i will have to sit on the steps IN SKIRT. So unglam. Haa Heng ah...
Nua-ed and chatted until abt 940 where we die die have to go cos wj have to go down to MOS. In the end, the 2 of them went down to cheong while i go home. Watched LOTR on channel 5. Continue watchin tmr, i mean later at 10pm, channel 5.
Quote from je:
If you are happy, everyday is your birthday!
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Went to Marche with Gavin and thanks for the belated bdae treat as well as the bookmark. It is realie nice. Then went ard shopping for his xmas pressie. It was nice seein gavin after so long and yeap, time to go back to vmd le...haha i noe me MIA veri veri long this sem...hee
Then now i will go to Dikun's bloopers. Saw the project Superstar for the schools at J8 and soon realised it was a waste of time. The location was bad, the crowd, worse. After a drink at mos burgers, we decided to watch chicken little cos i got dua by someone else. Just feel so dua la when i was told that person went to watch the show alr. To tink i turned down other people...sighs. Well, the crux was not abt me being dua but how dk pruchased the tix. When it was our turn, he said "1 chicken little pls" (When he meant 2, not 1 chicken little movie tix). I jus burst out laughing cos he sounded as thou he was orderin fried chicken from KFC. yeah...1 chicken little pls...
Then the second one came when we were walkin to newton mrt from united square. While we were on the pavement on the left side of the road, dk suddenly burst out in shock. Then i was shocked and asked him why. He said cos he saw the road sign moving, at a speed similar to ours. Then i couldn't help it but exclaim that he just made the 2nd blooper of the day. Noe why? Bcos a bangla construction worker was carryin it on his shoulders and he was walkin at the same speed as us, if not faster. As you can see, smart people can be full of bloopers too...
Here's a quote from chicken little
I just need an opportunity!
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Yeah, had a day of mj-ing today, or rather half a day of it cos my good bro came late. Agreed to blog all his funny anecdotes but i shall write why he is a good bro first la, give him some saving grace at least...hee to girls in NTU next yr, i shall do a bit of advertisin for him la. Ha! He is a very thoughtful guy, cos he bought a cake up to my place to celebrate jz and my belated bday, even though my bdae expired a loooong loooong time ago, at least he remembered. he even remembered to sms me on my bdae when his eyes were infected. What a nice brother i have rite? Ha!
Now i will blog abt the funny things my dear bro did to tickle us. There are 5 of them that i took down (cos of my short-term memory)...here goes
1) He reallie epitomises lateness. Being the organiser of today's mj session. he actually woke up at 1220 when we were supposed to meet and start, i mean START playin at noon. In the end, he was the last to reach at 2 plus while crushie (arrived at 1245) and jz (arrived at 1320) when they stay at eunos and tampines respectively. Anyway, as jz puts it, it is the trademark of S45 la. LATE. I am always late i admit but the way my classmates arrive late jus amazes me. We are also good at sittin at some weird corner waitin for up to 2 hours for everyone to arrive. So it is not advisable to arrive on time when havin class outing. With people like my good bro, it is hard to be latest.
2) After his eye incident, my bro currently needs a blue colour specs that becos the lenses reflects light, it makes him look like a conmen...haaa not i want to say. And it is even funnier cos the reflective lenses also reflects his tiles when we were playin mj. He got no choice but to remove it. What a joke.
3) Noe what, this bro of mine is into the mystic stuff, like tarot cards and MAGIC! So today he was tryin to display his magic tricks but he is seriously not a veri good magician. Sorry bro! The first trick went well, he asked 1 of us to choose a card and i choose ace of hearts. I showed it to jz and he immediately exclaimed "Du Shen" (meaning god of gambling), and yah, gb managed to get the right card even though he missed 1 previously and keep tinking he missed the correct card. Signs of an untrained magician. The second time, crushie choose king of hearts and yah, gb managed to guess the card, hesitantly. But then again, we were a group of uncooperating audience cos askin to shuffle the cards for him and u noe what my good bro said? He initially said no but after that he said it is not advisable. Another sign of an untrained magician. Eh, train harder okies. I look forward to a better show from u next time. Haaa
4) This bro of mine has a bad mouth too. When jz broke the mj arrangement while tryin to move the tiles to the front, gb said something to make us break into laughter.Eh jingzhong, u are not newbie leh! Haha, reallie ultimate bu4 ge3 mian4 zi3 rite!
5) And finally, he doesn't wear the conman specs for nothing. He is a conman thru and thru!! Haiyoh, purposely drop the card that jz asked for as partner when he was deciding whether to trump me anot. I was almost successful in makin him not trump me by givin him the i-am-ur-partner-look but gb jus dropped his cards to show jz he is his partner. How cheaterbug rite? Anyways, to give the full picture, he got the drop cards idea from me cos i accidentally dropped my queen of hearts when i wanted to put my ace hearts. Cheater bug!!!
Well, had a great day playin mj and bridge. Reallie relive the jc days. Those days when we play bridge in reading room 3 instead of studying. I still rem there was 1 occasion when OM came to confiscate our cards after warnin us not to play in school. We must have more of this okies. Next time go crushie's place. Maybe jz ur place when u get the mj table. Wanna go over and play carrom. How i miss sittin at the canteen playin carrom on fridays. Maybe smu shld have such loanin out system?? ha!
There os rumour flyin ard that we are havin a class outing durin xmas. Hope it visualises.
Sighs. No inpsiration to blog.
Quite sian currently cos my bioclock is like how spoilt? It is 2 plus now and i dun feel tired. Solitaire showdown is turning me into a robot. A robot that can play solitaire non-stop. Cant seem to be able to tune back the clock.
Well, and there is a bugger who tried to be funny with my blog. Quite sure he is not a fren cos i dun have a fren as asshole as him. Practically wiped out my taggies. And he got the damn cheek to spoof my friendster photo to be the crime of the week at some US sherrif website. What perturbes me is that he actually managed to find my friendster photo to link to the spoofed site. So i have a bad feeling he is someone i vaguely noe. Or is yvonne just an easy name to search on friendster? Sighs, i dun wanna think abt it.
Hope my friends are still able to come to my blog even with the stupid password thingy...i promise to remove it after this incident cools down. Cos i dun like typing password to access my own blog. Quite a hassle but what to do? Got such a bugger out there, i cant help it. So jus bear with it okies.
Yeah, tmr, no i mean later, i gotta play mj with crushie, alc bro and jz. The last time we played was a few months ago...in the early weeks of sch. The time passed seem so fast yet so slow.
Am reading the book "5 people you meet in heaven" and i saw this quote which is quite true:Scenary without solace is meaningless
Sunday, December 04, 2005
I have been wanting to blog about this for very long but don't seem to be able to find the motivation to, so now i shall blog on one this one BIG attitude of mine. According to MPW, if i never rem wrongly, attitude is a set of beliefs and feelings that lead to our intended behaviours. Our beliefs are based on the experiences we have from the past as well as the cultures we are brought up in. Ok, enough of MPW le even thou i am still over the moon after receivin my grade. I love Graham Brown. A pity he is not teachin next sem, if not i surely recommend him cos he uses recency effect and one thing, get him to rem ur name! But anyone needing a 0.5 mod can try his Leadership module, which starts in the 2nd half of the sem. Yeap, end of recommendation.
Hmm, i am amazed by how i can crap on something so irrelevant when my main point is on how i am cynically cynic.
Ok, why am i a cynic? I think there are 2 parts to it. First is the culture i am in, the image i want to portray and the mentality i have for Love. When i was much younger, i felt i wasn't "old" enough to get into one and also the fact that i used to be too idealistic. The image of him has got to be "perfect" but sadly, i learned through the hard way that a perfect guy jus doesn't exist! I think i brought it upon myself, i let him in to hurt me, how dumb!
I mentioned that beliefs are based on our past experiences and the "hard way" just means that. Don't ask me why and don't ask me how, cos i am not sure myself too. Well, well, these are the things that i never know.
I seriously think it is a vicious cycle. According to the attribution theory i learnt from MPW, it says that women have a higher internal attribution as in they blame themselves when things go wrong but i think i use a mixture of internal and external attribution. I attribute my previous heartbreaking experience as one that is caused by my previous "karma". The accumulation of all the bad things i have done when i break other people's heart just comes back to me in 1 super BIG bill...It was hard, but what doesn't break me just makes me stronger. Stronger in my singlehood belief and stronger in my ability to avoid pain.
I know i shouldn't trap myself in the past, the pain is long gone but the thought of it coming back to haunt me scares me. I prefer to walk away gracefully, away from the hoo haa of love because i am a believer of " what makes me happy, makes me equally sad". I am jus not ready, i think i am not mature enough so i choose to close myself up. I hate to give people the wrong impression because that just adds on to my "karma" level. When i say i am not good enough, i mean it. As in, i reallie think i am not good enough. It may not be an answer good enough but it is the truth nonetheless.
It is my fault, i am the only creating the wall between myself and everyone else. It just seem so far away or maybe i am the one who is far away.
Maybe jus a short story that happened today to illustrate my point.
This story happened at IKEA Singapore with yv, york, chris and aldric.
yv was playin with the heart-shaped cushion at the entrance cos it was soft and hugable.
york: You will be happy if a guy gives u this...
yv: No, i will be very freaked out...reallie
When i said that, it felt so real. I can jus imagine how freaked out i will be if a guy gives me that. Yeah, u get the picture rite?
I don't want to create anymore karma alr...I am not a cynic for nothing, even though Huiying keeps tellin me i shouldn't. Beliefs and feelings can be so difficult to change and i don't see myself changin any time soon.
Saturday, December 03, 2005
What an apt acronym for AIS man!!!
I am so dead! No amount of luck can tide me through the horrendous exam later.
Let's just hope i can have the luck to remember what i read and the logic to deduce the right ans later.
MCQ overload later.
And the fact that i have absolutely no appetite before my impending death spells trouble. It means i will die a hungry ghost later.
To all my friends, Dun just wish me luck. Wish me brain too...I need all that i can get! Best is to steal the answers from Mitch and let memorise 80 ans now...
Friday, December 02, 2005
U must have tot i have forgotten.
But the fact is that i have not!!!
Hahaha...
so here's a shoutout!Happy 20th Birthday Jingzhong!!
Welcome to the big 2!! Heee...
