Monday, December 26, 2005
drives me out to sea...
Time to say sorry again. Just cant pass my own beliefs. I need a psychologist soon i guess.
Some people think it is because i cant let go, which i know is not true. Like i said before, it is the beliefs that i formed that changed me. I may appear strong but the truth is i cant take another setback anymore. That's why i choose to put myself in between feeling and not feeling so that i dun get sucked in and later regret why i did what i done.
Time is precious. Indeed it is precious but it is so unquantifiable that how much time is enuff? Nobody knows rite? What is short for me may seem too long for somebody else. Does 2 negatives make a positive? For mathematics it works this way but in real life this is hardly the case. 2 mistakes doesn't make it right yeah. I am not daring to make the 2nd mistake. Emotional labour is too demandin alr. And i jus got reminded of my last christmas. Reminds me of the song "Last Christmas", some parts are quite apt but not everything applies. I dun want to keep talkin abt the same thing over and over again. It gets veri borin when i say it in bits and pieces. Anw, that't not impt alr. What is important is how i choose wisely or choose not to choose at all.
Y is it that i have a strong feelin it will be the latter?
Dun tink too much yeah.
P.S: If you think i am talkin about you, most likely i am not. =)
