Monday, January 02, 2006
Got home at noon yesterday after breakfast at macs with pk and darius. Had my sausauge egg mcmuffin as i wanted when i blogged last nite. So i was quite happy. Sometimes, i tink i am too easily contented le. So predictable and so gullible. Went straight to shower cos of the rain when i walked home from boon keng mrt. Pretty amazed at how i can stay awake the whole nite talkin, bloggin and watchin videos. Darius that pig went to sleep at 430 in the mornin, throwin us to his brother to entertain us. Impressed that he can watch the lame show '40 yr old virgin' 3 times within a week. Some parts were funny, some parts were gross and i cant count how many times the f-word came out. Then endin was predictable but the song and dance at the end was reallie uncallled for. It looks like some low-budget ending copyin bollywood style mass dance. But it was some light entertainment nevertheless.
Slept for an hr plus b4 goin to macs for breakfast. I can safely tell u what feelin i hate most. I abhor the feelin of sleepiness. U know u are so tired and yet u have to force urself to wake up. The eyelids were so heavy and i am pretty sure 3 seconds was all i need to go back to lala land. Had a fun time talkin abt sch after macs bf. Pk and me were happily reminiscing abt sch times and darius jus listened. Wonders if he understands what we were talkin abt. Haha.
As i was leavin the mrt station, i suddenly tot of the qn i asked darius during breakfast. I asked him if he will be in our batch if he were born on the 2nd and he said no. Then it jus dawned on me that this is reallie the work of fate. Things that happened long ago, actually affected the people we meet many years later on. Timing, location and space acutally matters. If in the meantime, something did not happen, other things would not have occured. If u take some time and think abt the people close to ur heart and how u met them, isn't it always by chance? Nobody will know that their best friend in future is standin right in front of them when they first met. It is after some time that friendships build up but if they never met in sch or durin CCA, would the friendship ever have formed?
Things that happen before will mould who u are today and who u are today will determine what is goin to happen in the future. The question is, does that mean that everything we go through has already been planned? The gpa i am goin to get this sem has already been fixed the moment i was born or is it still a variable? Am i here to choose or be chosen? Do i reallie get to choose or is it jus a facade? Are we here to jus go thru the motion of something that has already been predetermined? It is gettin a bit scary jus thinkin abt it but no doubt we still have to face it. For the time being, i tink i get to choose. Some people come and go cos i allowed it to or the other way round. But then again, won't it affect our experiences in future?
What now? i am confused. So what is fixed?
Fate is.
Destiny is not.
or so i tot.
