Friday, April 07, 2006
Tryin very hard to follow nature's law and do what i am supposed to this week but there is always a constant tot in my brain. It keeps my heart beating at 100km/hr (at least that's how fast i feel it is) when i tink of it and i take 5 mins to get back to normal. And EY is not helping by keeping me in suspense. The whole world noes of their application status except me. And btw, congrats to jiahui and jeremy to their comfirmation of internship at EY. I hope to join u guys there too!!
Eeeeks!! i am so worried, scared, irritated, apprehensive and everytime i check my status, i feel as if i am checking my grades. This feeling sucks and i want it to end, preferably immediately...i noe 3 got in alr, left 4 more vacancies. yeap 4 more.
Anw, back to my bizarre dreams. Yesterday i had the weirdiest of the weirdiest dreams. I dreamt there was a plane crashing into my old housing estate by terriorists. It was so real i could hear the explosion like next to me. Then i opened the door and saw the destruction, u noe, the kind u see on tv after 911? I guess it was the article on 911 i read a few days ago that triggered my dream. It is not funny if u are laughin at my dream now cos i was petrified by what i saw in my dream i went into hidin in the toilet. Then i rem the last scene b4 i woke up, there were these "terrorists" who got into my (old) flat but b4 they "found" me, i woke up. wonder if it is cos i was so scared i woke up or because it was alr 11am.
Strangely, it is the 2nd dream in this week i had with the settin as my old flat. Wonder what this means. I guess it is the same reason, i am too stressed and been cooped up at home for 90% of the week, maybe i got tired of my current flat. In my dream i wonder somewhere else...
well, am listenin to a song by embrace called nature's law. tink it is pretty nice so i jus include the lyrics here...
Nature's LawI tried to fight the feeling, the feeling took me down,
I struggle and I lost the day you knocked me out,
Now everything’s got meaning and meanings bring me down,
I'm watching as the screening of my life plays out.
Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life; for mine, I will chase...
You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
But you have to follow nature's law.
I'll live with never knowing, if knowing's gonna change,
I'll stop the feeling growing, I will stay away,
Like a broken record stuck before a song,
A million beginnings, none of them the one.
Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life; for mine, I will chase...
You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
But you have to follow nature's law.
I wrote her letters and tried to send them,
In a bottle I placed my hope,
And it's the last will of good intentions,
Seek your will, you'll give it to me,
Don't make me wait,
You build me up, now take down,
But I will stand my ground,
And I'm inspired when I'm found.
You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
If you let them show you'll keep them,
I know you're hurt but soon you'll rise again,
again, again, again, again, again, again, again..
You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe them,
You should never fight your feelings,
I have to follow nature's law.
